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How This First Week of Sobriety Was Different Than Last Year
New hurdles, new approaches and old feelings.
Last year I quit after waking up and realizing I had finished off a handle of vodka and wasn’t hung over. Shame, guilt, and desperation fueled my attempt (and success) at going sober. Everything I did in that first week, even the first month, was done with urgency. I had one thought for the entire time — I will die if I continue on this path.
Why did I even start drinking again then? I go into it more in this article but to put it simply, I underestimated alcohol’s hold over me. After attempting to go sober so many times in the past and miserably failing after one or two days, a full year of sobriety led me to believe that I had overcome my need for alcohol.
But as you’re aware, I had not overcome any addictions and a few months later, I’m back to square one. Or am I? The past year taught me so much and I am more prepared than ever to continue once again. I reset the timer on my sobriety app last week and after a week, I’m reflecting on what’s changed and why I feel more confident than ever about my sober journey.
I have a year of sobriety behind me
The obvious change between last year’s attempt and this year is that I now have a full year of…
