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I Almost Drank Alcohol Today
And why I was able to stop myself.
Everyone has their moments, these times where they are at a divide. You either do one thing or you do another. Sometimes you’re trying to decide between two good things, but sometimes you’re just trying to pick the lesser of two evils. Every time you’re at this point, you weigh the pros and cons of both choices. Will I be happier with this choice or that one?
I’m still what I’d call “newly sober” so I have little choices like that every day it feels like. But today had been especially gruesome between the stress of work and other things going on in the world that I heavily debated drinking alcohol.
I was driving home from work, taking my normal route, when it occurred to me that I could get off at an earlier exit and be able to grab a bottle of vodka on my way home. It would be so easy, just take the exit and I’m still going in the direction of my home, this was a different way. It wouldn’t be out of my way, and it would be a quick stop. Everything in my mind started going off at once.
Right in front of me were two decisions- take an earlier exit and get alcohol, or take the later exit and have there be no stops along the way where I could grab a drink. I was on the highway so I got into the right hand lane and debated my options, but they were more like justifications.
