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I Will Never Be Able to Drink Liquor Again
And I’m okay with it.
If there’s one thing that my year of sobriety taught me, it was that I had a toxic relationship with alcohol. I used it for all the reasons you’re not supposed to: anger, boredom, sadness, and loneliness.
After a year, I really felt like I could drink occasionally again (I know what you’re thinking, what an alcoholic thought). But I actually did it, I could buy one single beer on a Friday night and drink it, then stop. It felt wonderful and was such a boost of confidence that I had gained some independence from addictive thoughts.
But then I had a margarita.
The issue with making your own drink
The great thing about a beer, or a hard seltzer is that it’s already been portioned out. No worries about how much you’re actually drinking or what the alcohol percentage is. With liquor, there’s more of a gray area and especially on the second drink, you can’t be too sure how much is actually in there.
If you’re like me, your second drink is always just a little bit more alcohol and less filler.
Once I drank one margarita, I had a second one because the feeling I had gotten from the first one was nice and warm. It felt like I was being enveloped in a security blanket I had long…
