Is My Addictive Personality Keeping Me From Happiness?

At what point is it necessary to give up something?

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Alcohol for me was something that I used for all emotions, it didn’t have to necessarily be after a bad day, it could very well have been after a really great day. It wasn’t until I went sober that I realized that I used a lot of external things to supplement my internal happiness. Without them, I was listless, bored, and lonely. I didn’t know how to find my own source of happiness.

Some of my vices included:

• Food
• Caffeine
• TV

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Always trying to keep the feeling

Just like alcohol, I use things to feel a certain way. If I can somehow achieve a sliver of happiness, I don’t want to stop and it’s hard for me to just have a “treat”. Imagine getting yourself a box of ice cream sandwiches and what it feels like in that first bite. It tastes good and you’re enjoying how it makes you feel as well. The only difference between you and I would be…