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Sometimes you can’t moderate yourself with alcohol.
You’ve probably heard this story so many times before. Girl gets drunk.Girl gets drunk a lot. Girl realizes she has to stop. Girl doesn’t know how but she does know she wants to get better.
I realized I wanted to change while nursing a hangover from the night before last week. My head was killing me and I was exhausted from not being able to sleep. You know, because of the 3–4 shots of whiskey and 2 beers that gave me the worst sleep of my life. The thing is — it wasn’t even that bad of a hangover compared to weekend nights before but something about it triggered a desire for change in me. I didn’t like going to work with a hangover every day but I still went home that day and picked up the bottle of whiskey and I still took a few shots before I started feeling better physically and emotionally.
Like anyone who has been in or heard this story before, you’ll remember that the path to sobriety is one that is filled with many starts and stops(like SO many). Every time there was a stop, something always convinced me to come back. “Oh, you’re not that bad”, “Can’t you just cut back, do you really need to quit?”, “Was it really that bad?”(the most hurtful one for me), etc etc. When I would have those things said to me, I would feel like maybe I was overreacting, maybe they were right and I could just cut back on the drinking and…
