What Finally Tempted Me To Drink

It was only a matter of time.

Kelly Tompkins
3 min readApr 16, 2021


Photo by Raphaël Biscaldi on Unsplash

You might have some questions right now from the title. What does a beach ball in a pool have to do with alcohol? Didn’t I just write an article about how I’ve forgotten all about drinking?

That’s the great thing about being in recovery- you never quite forget about it, even if months go by without a craving. And this new craving was brought on by the most surprising of events.

So what happened?

The temperature is rising

As dumb as that sounds, what eventually brought on cravings for alcohol was as simple as it being close to summer.

It had been a couple of days with above 80 degree temperatures with high humidity and I had been doing my daily walk when it hit. It’s getting hot already and it’s so humid, you know what would be really refreshing? A nice cocktail or a hard seltzer. The urge to drink spiked from 0 to 100 and I was starting to feel the stress. I finished my walk and popped open a nonalcoholic beer, hoping that would satisfy my craving for alcohol.

Of course, it didn’t.

The next day, I had the craving again and tried to think of ways I could satisfy the urge that wasn’t drinking. I knew at a logical level, I didn’t want alcohol, I wanted something refreshing so we went to the grocery store to stock up on kombucha and sparkling water.

Topo Chico has a seltzer

When we arrived, one of the first things we saw on a giant display were the new Topo Chico hard seltzers. If you haven’t kept up with my sobriety journey, what set me back last year was giving into the hard seltzer craze. I started drinking White Claws shortly after my year milestone and it only took a little while to realize that no matter how much I thought I could handle drinking, I would never be able to.

There I was trying to stock up on drinks that would hopefully curb that urge to drink and there the display was, magnificent and grand. Surrounding the display were smaller ones of sunscreens, because hard seltzers are sold as the perfect refreshment, especially during a hot summer day.



Kelly Tompkins

Austin,Texas sober girl. Lover of horror movies, cats, and fitness. Occasional bad poet.

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